Week #38 – “Keep Going!”
We flipped the calendar to a new month this week…and with that, I’m forced to look ahead to August. I keep a three-month spread out in front of me at all times. Always taking three months at a time. 13 weeks. 1 whole quarter.
As I started to fill in my August dates…I can see the anniversaries now all in one shot. 1st round of chemo. 2nd round of chemo. 3rd round. 4th round. Rob in the ER. Rob in the ER again. 5th treatment…nope. That one’s scratched out. That’s the day I took Rob to a pre-op at Sloan in New York. The last precious and beautiful day we spent together outside a hospital. Exactly 10 days before he died.
And here we are…another Friday the 5th.
This grief has been an extraordinary thing. Just when you think you’re doing okay, it throws you another anniversary! Looking at three months of reminders of where we were last year is more than overwhelming. Some people have suggested that I not record those anniversaries…but there are others too. The day I gave notice at my corporate job. The day I left my corporate job. The day our first writing deal came through. The day we finished and sent a certain script. These all serve to remind me that stuff happens…every day. Some good. Some bad. The Universe may be indifferent…but Serendipity is alive and well, too.
At a time when things just don’t make sense…and I feel my heart growing dark and cynical, I cling to this truth: Anything can happen.
And I hear my brother’s voice urging me on…as I know he urged on many of you:
Keep Moving! Keep Going! Keep Playing! Keep Flying!
Your assignment for this week: Are you feeling like you are up against a wall? KEEP GOING! Press forward to that one next step…and then the one after that. Better yet…do you know someone who is stuck or struggling to move forward? Urge them on with some encouraging words: Keep Going! Keep Playing! Keep Moving! Keep Flying!
ANYTHING can happen. The good…and the bad. The answer: Keep Going!
Spread Happyness — Keep Going! (And encourage others to do so, as well!)
6/5/15 by Grace Church
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